Last night I attended a LARGE networking event and saw many wonderful people that I've gotten to know over the years. It was more like attending a gathering of friends than a 'networking' event. I had known about this event for quite some time but only made up my mind to attend a few days prior to the event. I didn't know if I could face being in a group. You see for the last few months I've really been struggling with depression. Depression is not new to me, I'd say were we old friends only there's nothing friendly about depression. I've dealt with it my entire life usually employing the white knuckle method of coping. It's simpler & much easier to retreat farther and farther away from life when depressed, it's definitely NOT the best thing to do just the easiest and the result is the almost herculian effort it takes to leave the safety of home.
I finally got sick and tired of fighting as hard as I could just to keep my head above the mental water line of drowning. I saw a doctor I trust completely who I knew would walk with me through the decision of what medication if any that I needed to take. This was one of the most challenging decisions I've ever had to make. You see I had a lot of judgements about better living through pharmacology that I had to overcome. I'm so glad I did though because I was able to find a medication that over the past month has made a world of difference in my life which in turn has made a huge difference in the lives of those I love the most and the lives of those around me.
I was able to venture out into a large gathering last night because of the balancing effect of the medication. I went mainly to push myself out of the protective cocoon I've been living in and into a situation that made me feel uncomfortable and boy am I glad I went!
I had numerous people come up to me and tell me what a positive impact I've had on them. The things they shared with me surprised me and touched me deeply because I had no idea what impact I had had in their lives. It was both a humbling and empowering experience for me. The experience reminded me that when we are locked in our own heads we rarely see the world around us clearly and we certainly don't see how we impact others or the gifts that we bring into the world just by being ourselves.
I make mistakes all the time, I can be self absorbed and judgmental, petty and small minded which leads me to be extremely harsh with how I see myself. I try not to be but I'm only human - we all are. It's funny how easy it is to see how AMAZING other people are, how talented, inspiring and kind they are, how brightly their 'Little Light of Mine' their Christ light shines through. What if we saw ourselves as others saw us? What would our lives look like? Starting today rather than focusing on our limitations and shortcomings let's do our best to focus on the Glory that is made manifest in each and every one of us and look at ourselves through the eyes of others. Who knows what might happen!
Here's to you in Health, Wellness and Fitness!
Jennifer Malocha CEO of Fun at Wuhoo Fitness
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